Fill me , Lord...

Fill me with the fruits of Your Spirit , Lord.
Fill me with love , so that I seek to understand and appreciate
the rich variety and diversity of life that surrounds me.
Fill me with joy , so that I celebrate Your presence in each
and every moment I am on this earth.
Fill me with peace , so that I know how to ease those angry
and sometimes unholy urges inside of me.
Fill me with patience , so that I stop rushing
long enough to witness Your miraculous work
taking place all around me. ( And within me!)
Fill me with kindness , so that I take extra time to help the one in need,
even when it isn't convenient for me
Fill me with faithfulness , so that I place my mind , heart
and all that I do in the service of Your Gospel.
Fill me with gentleness , so that others know that I believe
in God who loves and cares for all people.
Fill me with self-control , so that I act not on my impulses
and urges , but rather on my beliefs and values ,
which are rooted in You.
Fill me with all these fruits if Your spirit , Lord!
Amen.

-cheras EFC weekly bulletin-

=P

A poem about you

A friend and a warrior

The stakes are high

Uncertainty floods into my mind

When water tides gets rough

It makes standing with shaky knees so tough

Choices made are risking my life

But you are with me battling this fight

Your smile encompasses with words of encouragement

Confident as you make a steady judgement

The scent of you have made me grown desensitized

To every fear of throwing a dice

Just knowing that you are by my side

I could finish any race with a blink of an eye

Do you always read my mind?

To understand every sign

You ease those violent urges welled up in me

Without even one’s plea

If I hear the same humming of your melodious voice

That sounds like gentle lullabies

My soul swells rolling the emblazoned red carpet at our doorways.

Creating narrow paths back to our yesterdays

It seems like the journey crossed will have no ends

We will be seeing each other sooner or then

Because friendship is everlasting

Like an ever flowing river that keeps on running

What we have is priceless to many

You cannot be exchanged with a dime or a penny

Dear friend, you are the hidden stone tucked under the pillow.

The treacherous wind will blow

But I will embrace you with warm arms

We will be bold to face what tomorrow comes!

dear friend...

Friend, are you okay? I kept asking you everyday...
What bothers you , friend?
Is it the gloomy weather that's causing you to miss bedtime?
Are you sick? Or having headaches? Is life in school pulling you down?
Sometimes you say yes and no for an answer...
Friend, I have given you so much trouble....
Like a little girl clinging on to a mother...
Would you teach me how to grow up?
You're always well organized
Improving, as the days go by...
Would I'd been a burden to you all along?
If not, why are you so quiet until silence is all I hear?
Friend, you're always an encourager...
You taught me everything about how to open up my eyes...
to see the world with a different pair of spectacles...
'Life is beautiful', you said with full optimism!
Recently you have been hiding your feelings...
There is nothing that you would not report to me.
Even the tinniest details, you'll never missed.
Friend, are you suffering alone?
Because you're always so strong, so stable...
unbreakable... but you have a gentle side...
when you mourn for the helpless...
and in tears when you're touched by words...
secretly, you cry in your bedroom you told me..
But what made you so different now?
Could it be, only me who sees it?
Your laughter gets softer and softer...
Like you try to laugh, but the sound of your sweet voice is blocked.
Friend, are you in pain? I asked this question several times..
You said no again.
I've must have done something wrong...
But you don't have courage to tell me the truth...
Are you afraid to break my heart?
Then don't be. Because I want to be your good friend...
I must be strong, because you ain't reasoning out with me...
I could never give up on you...
For you are so special to me...
So dear, so precious...
I love you my friend....

miss okay...

cmom cmom.... it;s not like the first time people would cross your line mercilessly...
cmom, sabrina, it's A-okay! Put yourself together... get some sleep...
the one thing I couldn't do...is smile... when my heart is aching...
breathe breathe.... I am okay! I am OKAY with everything...
remember what have I learned in the past life...
this is just a piece of cake...
no tears... not hard... no crying... definitely... cannot asma! choi choi choi!
Surrender yourself to God! *waves white flag*



.

You and Me... struggling...

To do the right thing. To obey. To submit to our leaders. To overcome insecurities. To understand. 

To hold on to each other like we have held on for so long up right until now. 

To walk this rocky path together.

It is hard. It feels guilty sometimes. It has never been easy for both of us.

It must have been your determination and encouragement that had keep me going on not giving up on us.

We have flaws, here and there. Nothing much to boast about us being Christians.

There is nothing so perfect about us.

We struggle to like any other young couple would to walk in the way as a Christian should.

And most of the time , I would use all in the name of love then say  'I don't care'!

I want you so badly. I would like to spend most of my time with you.

That is where disobedience comes in I guess.

Its sad to say, that what I'm doing is actually wrong when it seems so comfortable doing it.

I must admit it. And say 'yes', I have done very wrong for all this while.

I cannot hide from the truth.

That we're not allowed to be together yet.

The right time has not come. Parents don't approve.

But we will soon be together as one. 

It has been a beautiful experience being together with you.

All so sweet and bitter at times.

I will definitely miss you oh so close and sticky to me.

No matter what others may say or think about you.

You're always always gonna be so amazingly beautiful, inside and out, to me.

Buckle up!^^ We'll now start a new journey today. To walk right!

 To stay close and uptight with God ya!

I remember how passionate we once was for God.

And you kept me burning even more.

When you say you desire to see a change

It will surely happen someday!

where is the ♥?

Will you ever welcome a stranger with open hands

when you don't even know his or her name

or when they look like aliens from another planet 

giving you confirmations that "hey, they're just not my kind of people"?

Would you throw your hands around someone you know but not yet that close

just because this person wants to be cuddled somehow

and could not find ways to express their inner thoughts but seeking for comfort and care?

Would you go talk to this someone new in your group

just because you are willing to get  to know him or her so badly

and to also let them know how special his or her  presence is to you and friends?

If you ever see someone left out, 

would you pace forth to where she or he is 

to just simply accompany them 

assuring them that they are not alone in this crowd?

Of course this are the tiniest thing that should be taken notice of how you would show love 

to any single person who comes in your way...

But this is also a start to friendship...

I question myself from time to time...

Where is that innocent love, so warm and tender, that has once been shown to many?

Am I just too comfortable with my own group of friends? Couldn't care less about the newcomers?

Or do I have my oh-so-sweet-partner to spend time with? That I forgotten about others?

If I deny all this...

THEN

WHY

IS 

THIS 

GROUP

GETTING

SMALLER

OR

JUST 

STAYING THE SAME AS BEFORE???

Where has your heart gone? Is it meant  to love the ones you are close to only?

Then you and I must be wrong...

because this heart stretches far away...

this heart that beats is able to love many unconditionally..

Just like the heart that Jesus has for many people!

Like an ever flowing river,

pouring with love for the righteous and to the unrighteous...

So love people the way Jesus did and stop loving so stingily and choosy ya! haha!