Go away misery...

Your insensitivity. Your cold shoulders. Your short cut statements. Your explanations. Your absence. I'm afraid that I couldn't bare with them anymore. Sorry to tell you that I'm broken enough to give up. I no longer keen on having a relationship with you. You want to go straight right up to the point. Let's make it as simple as it is. Chances are given out. You blew it. The wounds goes deeper until it brings me to a point where I don't want to fight against the pain all over again. How fragile my heart is, probably you don't understand. Since you don't get what I mean. Why don't we do it the easy way? I let go and you let go, just like that. Reason? We're incompatible. Worth it? Why wouldn't it be. There are other fish in the sea. Can catch one and get on with life? Why not. It could be a better fish. Am I sure that I'm not gonna have a hard time to release my partner's hand? Well, as time goes by, memories will fade away pieces by pieces. Its rough in the beginning. But it will be okay later, once you get through that stage. I will be fine. I can live on with it. I told myself. Go away misery, pain, depression! Shooh! I have all the rights to be happy being alone.

Well, oh well, thats me alright! Laugh it out loud because this is the insecure, pathetic, selfish, self-pity and impatient me! haha! Look at me, how childish I could be sometimes. All in the name of love. Why do I need to react in such a way? You see, I don't know what is love back then. I learn more from movies, I guess. They taught us that love is an expression of words, a gesture that includes kissing, hugging, touching and so much more. Why do we need it so much? Because we feel empty inside. We struggle to find what is true love is. It's miserable not being able to experience it. And you hope that this misery will go away in a snap of a finger with the solution of finding a person who fulfills your desires. That we call short lived passion of love. The life span of that kind of instant love is short. It comes and goes off like the wind. It doesn't last. It makes you regret why did you ever give all you had for that one single person who takes it for granted ,then, you'll be trapped in the hows and whys of life. Oh yeah, I've been through this. I know what its like.Once I realized that I was an idiot, I tried to break up with that person. I told him exactly everything I have written in the first paragraph. Firstly, I was really damaged. I couldn't let myself go through emotional days. Where I go crazy and cry and cry and cry for something that doesn't even deserve my tears and time. Secondly, there was a part of me wanting that person to win me back, to fight for me and tell me that he treasure those tears of mine. Oh, how stupid I was. What in the world I was expecting from a person who barely know how to love his friends. Hey people out there, c'mom lets face our problems. Don't run away. They will be pilled up if you deny their existence. Cigarettes and drugs are not the answers for your problems. It can only lessen the pain for a while then it comes back again in no time. Sooner or later you have to face them. So, be ready for them. Put on a full set of armor for protection and fight against it. Then, you'll be a stronger person that is ready to face each day with every word that comes from the Bible. A simple prayer will do wonders! God answers them ya know? I'm reminding myself, you my dearest friends and others around the world to have a quiet time spent reading the Bible that teaches you how you could face your fear and adversities in life!

If you have found the one that God has placed in your life. Don't give up easily on him or her because it says here in the Bible, " Love Never Quits ".

Hold on to that love you once shared with your dearest ones. Hold it tight, but be gentle at the same time just like you wrapped it around with your arms to a fluffy pillow! Be patient too, as it takes time to grow strong and steady. Cheers!