I'm protecting my fragile heart...

Who else would be sensitive to you... more than yourself???
If they could break it even knowing how weak it is, they'll just do...
why? simply because most of them thinks that it's not theirs but yours
their killing...they're stepping on it hard! why on earth they care! It's not them who gets hurt!
hahahahahhahahaaaa... T T
Or some may feel guilty conscious.... and try to make it up to you...
It's very rare to find someone who protects others first...
Meanwhile, what I can do is just love myself.
Must protect myself.
Must not let words of discouragement...
dwell in me.. and watch myself fall apart..
If i'm sad, after crying... hold myself back together...
Life is too short to be anything but HAPPY!
I won't prolong my depressing thoughts but rather focus on other things...
I'm standing back up, telling myself ... Hey! I must love myself before loving others!
I'm gonna protect myself !! Won't let you mean people win the game in life!
I'll stay happy with a big smile on my face saying, I'm a perfect child of God! I am so!
And this life He has given to me... I'll cherish it... make full use of it!
Won't let you people blocking all my happy moments or bringing me down
I'm a winner ahhh!!

Thank you for understanding...

From the bottom of my heart I just wanna thank you so much...
For understanding me although sometimes it might be hard
because I can't really express out the way feel inside....
Thank you dear friends. You might not be a brother or sister in Christ yet!
But you care, you love, you understand, somehow more than a family member does...
Thank you AHFISH and YIBI, for your time to hear me grumble a lil and me voicing out my sadness.
Today I was very 'san fu', to endure all the harsh, unkind, prejudice & sickly-repeated-negative words
I think I might just die of heart broken....haha... kua jiong! But it does hurts a lot..
For 2 hours of hearing those same words. Its nothing but arrows shooting through my heart....
On the surface I may look calm and okay....
But I'm just like you my friends. I cry very easily and I get hurt very easily too.
We're so much alike in a way ^ ^
If 1happy family, you're all here... I would run into your arms and cry....
Because there's no one else who would even try to understand... who..really never tried...haha..
Dear chin chin, if you were there at that moment... I would be in tears... telling you what exactly just happened
and I know you'll always say... 'it's okay, wai ling, don't have to take it to yourself what they just say'
or you might say, 'never let those words hurt you, you must be strong'.
And I would cry even harder. To release every pain that I have inside and then wipe my tears..
move forward...and stand back up again...
  I love you, my friends ^ ^


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是命运紧紧把我们绑在一起

When will we tie a knot between us?
Hear me giggle... when you said I'm already married to you...
Yes, dear... I remember my vows to you.^ ^
Should we renew vows when we reach our bronze,silver,golden year
& some more got what kind of year that we need to celebrate???
heeh! I believe everyday with you calls for a celebration...
Even though we're not together yet!
But I know how much we would treasure so hard for us...
Because we waited for so long
Together we gone so far and it takes so much perseverance
We grown so muchhh... I love you even deeper!!
I'm keeping my heart oh-so-pure for you,
Must gambateh! REFINE IMPURITIES!
Will always keep you in mind & prayer...

 Love,
           Sabrina!

Don't go breaking my heart movie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sYU6U_OKyE

PART 1/17 :

it's a nice movie!

hah! I dowanna be a spoiler... so... Im just gonna tell ya lil lil bits about this movie...

There are 4 types of men. Well, actually its three...

I just figured out the third by myself. heeeh!

The first man, very well known as the man who most probably would give in to a woman

when he'd knew she's having his blood and flesh....

and then dumps his 7 years of sweet lovely girlfriend....for someone... who's maybe 

his other pregnant wife or girlfriend? I dunno la...

To conclude it, pregnant woman comes first for this man. hehe

Then, there's this I-love-woman-sss man...

Oh! This man is secretly , madly in love with an office girl for 3 years..

Yesh! He reaaaally does people... 

He's a man alright! A man who is so capable to love womansss...

I mean this woman, this very special woman - he's serious about and in the mean time...

he could also have desires for sexy women...ahem..other women...

this man memang banyak guys side leh, fyi!

oh yup! He's a man who could love a woman and wants other women.... 

 A saying goes, there's 10 kind of guys in this world, 9 of them are dead but 1 is different.

The one guy, is the 2nd guy that I've just intro to ya.

ahuh... He claims to be the one guy who could really love this woman...

out of 10, would you choose the one who is type 2?

But if there's guy 11?? Which is type 3, way alien than all the 10 guys that I just mention.

oyeahh! This is guy number 3. Who was falling in life but got back up and turn out to be...

the kind of guy, a woman might call the 11th guy!!!! 0,0'' 

'you'll be like, uh, does guy 11th even exist?'

This guy is very rare in society nowadays^^  

but of course he can be found! Just very rare to meet guy type 3.

Meet guy type 3, loyalty is one of the quality that he has.

Many girls will say, yeah, he's the one who could give someone security.... >o<

And move on to guy type 4, seen all in the streets.

everyday new woman , everyday enjoy making love , kind of guy!

whooshh.... spoils the mood...

What if you're falling head over heels into guy type 2 and you're willing to love him to the very bits.

Even when you're hurting so bad due to his disloyalty , you could still go on not finding someone else.

But the choices are in your hands, guy type 2 & 3, is both waiting at your door.

Both love you so much, so deep, so passionate.

Who would you choose leh?!

Chin says : Stupid kah?! Choose guy type 3 la!~

Sabrina : T . T , what about poor guy type 2? He's fighting over his nature mah...

Chin : aih... I don't wanna marry already cause guy type 3 is so hard to find. haha!

overall....

Guys : I prefer, the character in guy type 2, more real, you know? Guy type 3 is more like fairytale la.

Girls : Waiting for the 11th guy to appear. Because guy type 3 is the best choice! lawl!

Fill me , Lord...

Fill me with the fruits of Your Spirit , Lord.
Fill me with love , so that I seek to understand and appreciate
the rich variety and diversity of life that surrounds me.
Fill me with joy , so that I celebrate Your presence in each
and every moment I am on this earth.
Fill me with peace , so that I know how to ease those angry
and sometimes unholy urges inside of me.
Fill me with patience , so that I stop rushing
long enough to witness Your miraculous work
taking place all around me. ( And within me!)
Fill me with kindness , so that I take extra time to help the one in need,
even when it isn't convenient for me
Fill me with faithfulness , so that I place my mind , heart
and all that I do in the service of Your Gospel.
Fill me with gentleness , so that others know that I believe
in God who loves and cares for all people.
Fill me with self-control , so that I act not on my impulses
and urges , but rather on my beliefs and values ,
which are rooted in You.
Fill me with all these fruits if Your spirit , Lord!
Amen.

-cheras EFC weekly bulletin-

=P

A poem about you

A friend and a warrior

The stakes are high

Uncertainty floods into my mind

When water tides gets rough

It makes standing with shaky knees so tough

Choices made are risking my life

But you are with me battling this fight

Your smile encompasses with words of encouragement

Confident as you make a steady judgement

The scent of you have made me grown desensitized

To every fear of throwing a dice

Just knowing that you are by my side

I could finish any race with a blink of an eye

Do you always read my mind?

To understand every sign

You ease those violent urges welled up in me

Without even one’s plea

If I hear the same humming of your melodious voice

That sounds like gentle lullabies

My soul swells rolling the emblazoned red carpet at our doorways.

Creating narrow paths back to our yesterdays

It seems like the journey crossed will have no ends

We will be seeing each other sooner or then

Because friendship is everlasting

Like an ever flowing river that keeps on running

What we have is priceless to many

You cannot be exchanged with a dime or a penny

Dear friend, you are the hidden stone tucked under the pillow.

The treacherous wind will blow

But I will embrace you with warm arms

We will be bold to face what tomorrow comes!

dear friend...

Friend, are you okay? I kept asking you everyday...
What bothers you , friend?
Is it the gloomy weather that's causing you to miss bedtime?
Are you sick? Or having headaches? Is life in school pulling you down?
Sometimes you say yes and no for an answer...
Friend, I have given you so much trouble....
Like a little girl clinging on to a mother...
Would you teach me how to grow up?
You're always well organized
Improving, as the days go by...
Would I'd been a burden to you all along?
If not, why are you so quiet until silence is all I hear?
Friend, you're always an encourager...
You taught me everything about how to open up my eyes...
to see the world with a different pair of spectacles...
'Life is beautiful', you said with full optimism!
Recently you have been hiding your feelings...
There is nothing that you would not report to me.
Even the tinniest details, you'll never missed.
Friend, are you suffering alone?
Because you're always so strong, so stable...
unbreakable... but you have a gentle side...
when you mourn for the helpless...
and in tears when you're touched by words...
secretly, you cry in your bedroom you told me..
But what made you so different now?
Could it be, only me who sees it?
Your laughter gets softer and softer...
Like you try to laugh, but the sound of your sweet voice is blocked.
Friend, are you in pain? I asked this question several times..
You said no again.
I've must have done something wrong...
But you don't have courage to tell me the truth...
Are you afraid to break my heart?
Then don't be. Because I want to be your good friend...
I must be strong, because you ain't reasoning out with me...
I could never give up on you...
For you are so special to me...
So dear, so precious...
I love you my friend....