I'm protecting my fragile heart...

Who else would be sensitive to you... more than yourself???
If they could break it even knowing how weak it is, they'll just do...
why? simply because most of them thinks that it's not theirs but yours
their killing...they're stepping on it hard! why on earth they care! It's not them who gets hurt!
hahahahahhahahaaaa... T T
Or some may feel guilty conscious.... and try to make it up to you...
It's very rare to find someone who protects others first...
Meanwhile, what I can do is just love myself.
Must protect myself.
Must not let words of discouragement...
dwell in me.. and watch myself fall apart..
If i'm sad, after crying... hold myself back together...
Life is too short to be anything but HAPPY!
I won't prolong my depressing thoughts but rather focus on other things...
I'm standing back up, telling myself ... Hey! I must love myself before loving others!
I'm gonna protect myself !! Won't let you mean people win the game in life!
I'll stay happy with a big smile on my face saying, I'm a perfect child of God! I am so!
And this life He has given to me... I'll cherish it... make full use of it!
Won't let you people blocking all my happy moments or bringing me down
I'm a winner ahhh!!

Thank you for understanding...

From the bottom of my heart I just wanna thank you so much...
For understanding me although sometimes it might be hard
because I can't really express out the way feel inside....
Thank you dear friends. You might not be a brother or sister in Christ yet!
But you care, you love, you understand, somehow more than a family member does...
Thank you AHFISH and YIBI, for your time to hear me grumble a lil and me voicing out my sadness.
Today I was very 'san fu', to endure all the harsh, unkind, prejudice & sickly-repeated-negative words
I think I might just die of heart broken....haha... kua jiong! But it does hurts a lot..
For 2 hours of hearing those same words. Its nothing but arrows shooting through my heart....
On the surface I may look calm and okay....
But I'm just like you my friends. I cry very easily and I get hurt very easily too.
We're so much alike in a way ^ ^
If 1happy family, you're all here... I would run into your arms and cry....
Because there's no one else who would even try to understand... who..really never tried...haha..
Dear chin chin, if you were there at that moment... I would be in tears... telling you what exactly just happened
and I know you'll always say... 'it's okay, wai ling, don't have to take it to yourself what they just say'
or you might say, 'never let those words hurt you, you must be strong'.
And I would cry even harder. To release every pain that I have inside and then wipe my tears..
move forward...and stand back up again...
  I love you, my friends ^ ^


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是命运紧紧把我们绑在一起

When will we tie a knot between us?
Hear me giggle... when you said I'm already married to you...
Yes, dear... I remember my vows to you.^ ^
Should we renew vows when we reach our bronze,silver,golden year
& some more got what kind of year that we need to celebrate???
heeh! I believe everyday with you calls for a celebration...
Even though we're not together yet!
But I know how much we would treasure so hard for us...
Because we waited for so long
Together we gone so far and it takes so much perseverance
We grown so muchhh... I love you even deeper!!
I'm keeping my heart oh-so-pure for you,
Must gambateh! REFINE IMPURITIES!
Will always keep you in mind & prayer...

 Love,
           Sabrina!

Don't go breaking my heart movie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sYU6U_OKyE

PART 1/17 :

it's a nice movie!

hah! I dowanna be a spoiler... so... Im just gonna tell ya lil lil bits about this movie...

There are 4 types of men. Well, actually its three...

I just figured out the third by myself. heeeh!

The first man, very well known as the man who most probably would give in to a woman

when he'd knew she's having his blood and flesh....

and then dumps his 7 years of sweet lovely girlfriend....for someone... who's maybe 

his other pregnant wife or girlfriend? I dunno la...

To conclude it, pregnant woman comes first for this man. hehe

Then, there's this I-love-woman-sss man...

Oh! This man is secretly , madly in love with an office girl for 3 years..

Yesh! He reaaaally does people... 

He's a man alright! A man who is so capable to love womansss...

I mean this woman, this very special woman - he's serious about and in the mean time...

he could also have desires for sexy women...ahem..other women...

this man memang banyak guys side leh, fyi!

oh yup! He's a man who could love a woman and wants other women.... 

 A saying goes, there's 10 kind of guys in this world, 9 of them are dead but 1 is different.

The one guy, is the 2nd guy that I've just intro to ya.

ahuh... He claims to be the one guy who could really love this woman...

out of 10, would you choose the one who is type 2?

But if there's guy 11?? Which is type 3, way alien than all the 10 guys that I just mention.

oyeahh! This is guy number 3. Who was falling in life but got back up and turn out to be...

the kind of guy, a woman might call the 11th guy!!!! 0,0'' 

'you'll be like, uh, does guy 11th even exist?'

This guy is very rare in society nowadays^^  

but of course he can be found! Just very rare to meet guy type 3.

Meet guy type 3, loyalty is one of the quality that he has.

Many girls will say, yeah, he's the one who could give someone security.... >o<

And move on to guy type 4, seen all in the streets.

everyday new woman , everyday enjoy making love , kind of guy!

whooshh.... spoils the mood...

What if you're falling head over heels into guy type 2 and you're willing to love him to the very bits.

Even when you're hurting so bad due to his disloyalty , you could still go on not finding someone else.

But the choices are in your hands, guy type 2 & 3, is both waiting at your door.

Both love you so much, so deep, so passionate.

Who would you choose leh?!

Chin says : Stupid kah?! Choose guy type 3 la!~

Sabrina : T . T , what about poor guy type 2? He's fighting over his nature mah...

Chin : aih... I don't wanna marry already cause guy type 3 is so hard to find. haha!

overall....

Guys : I prefer, the character in guy type 2, more real, you know? Guy type 3 is more like fairytale la.

Girls : Waiting for the 11th guy to appear. Because guy type 3 is the best choice! lawl!

Fill me , Lord...

Fill me with the fruits of Your Spirit , Lord.
Fill me with love , so that I seek to understand and appreciate
the rich variety and diversity of life that surrounds me.
Fill me with joy , so that I celebrate Your presence in each
and every moment I am on this earth.
Fill me with peace , so that I know how to ease those angry
and sometimes unholy urges inside of me.
Fill me with patience , so that I stop rushing
long enough to witness Your miraculous work
taking place all around me. ( And within me!)
Fill me with kindness , so that I take extra time to help the one in need,
even when it isn't convenient for me
Fill me with faithfulness , so that I place my mind , heart
and all that I do in the service of Your Gospel.
Fill me with gentleness , so that others know that I believe
in God who loves and cares for all people.
Fill me with self-control , so that I act not on my impulses
and urges , but rather on my beliefs and values ,
which are rooted in You.
Fill me with all these fruits if Your spirit , Lord!
Amen.

-cheras EFC weekly bulletin-

=P

A poem about you

A friend and a warrior

The stakes are high

Uncertainty floods into my mind

When water tides gets rough

It makes standing with shaky knees so tough

Choices made are risking my life

But you are with me battling this fight

Your smile encompasses with words of encouragement

Confident as you make a steady judgement

The scent of you have made me grown desensitized

To every fear of throwing a dice

Just knowing that you are by my side

I could finish any race with a blink of an eye

Do you always read my mind?

To understand every sign

You ease those violent urges welled up in me

Without even one’s plea

If I hear the same humming of your melodious voice

That sounds like gentle lullabies

My soul swells rolling the emblazoned red carpet at our doorways.

Creating narrow paths back to our yesterdays

It seems like the journey crossed will have no ends

We will be seeing each other sooner or then

Because friendship is everlasting

Like an ever flowing river that keeps on running

What we have is priceless to many

You cannot be exchanged with a dime or a penny

Dear friend, you are the hidden stone tucked under the pillow.

The treacherous wind will blow

But I will embrace you with warm arms

We will be bold to face what tomorrow comes!

dear friend...

Friend, are you okay? I kept asking you everyday...
What bothers you , friend?
Is it the gloomy weather that's causing you to miss bedtime?
Are you sick? Or having headaches? Is life in school pulling you down?
Sometimes you say yes and no for an answer...
Friend, I have given you so much trouble....
Like a little girl clinging on to a mother...
Would you teach me how to grow up?
You're always well organized
Improving, as the days go by...
Would I'd been a burden to you all along?
If not, why are you so quiet until silence is all I hear?
Friend, you're always an encourager...
You taught me everything about how to open up my eyes...
to see the world with a different pair of spectacles...
'Life is beautiful', you said with full optimism!
Recently you have been hiding your feelings...
There is nothing that you would not report to me.
Even the tinniest details, you'll never missed.
Friend, are you suffering alone?
Because you're always so strong, so stable...
unbreakable... but you have a gentle side...
when you mourn for the helpless...
and in tears when you're touched by words...
secretly, you cry in your bedroom you told me..
But what made you so different now?
Could it be, only me who sees it?
Your laughter gets softer and softer...
Like you try to laugh, but the sound of your sweet voice is blocked.
Friend, are you in pain? I asked this question several times..
You said no again.
I've must have done something wrong...
But you don't have courage to tell me the truth...
Are you afraid to break my heart?
Then don't be. Because I want to be your good friend...
I must be strong, because you ain't reasoning out with me...
I could never give up on you...
For you are so special to me...
So dear, so precious...
I love you my friend....

miss okay...

cmom cmom.... it;s not like the first time people would cross your line mercilessly...
cmom, sabrina, it's A-okay! Put yourself together... get some sleep...
the one thing I couldn't do...is smile... when my heart is aching...
breathe breathe.... I am okay! I am OKAY with everything...
remember what have I learned in the past life...
this is just a piece of cake...
no tears... not hard... no crying... definitely... cannot asma! choi choi choi!
Surrender yourself to God! *waves white flag*



.

You and Me... struggling...

To do the right thing. To obey. To submit to our leaders. To overcome insecurities. To understand. 

To hold on to each other like we have held on for so long up right until now. 

To walk this rocky path together.

It is hard. It feels guilty sometimes. It has never been easy for both of us.

It must have been your determination and encouragement that had keep me going on not giving up on us.

We have flaws, here and there. Nothing much to boast about us being Christians.

There is nothing so perfect about us.

We struggle to like any other young couple would to walk in the way as a Christian should.

And most of the time , I would use all in the name of love then say  'I don't care'!

I want you so badly. I would like to spend most of my time with you.

That is where disobedience comes in I guess.

Its sad to say, that what I'm doing is actually wrong when it seems so comfortable doing it.

I must admit it. And say 'yes', I have done very wrong for all this while.

I cannot hide from the truth.

That we're not allowed to be together yet.

The right time has not come. Parents don't approve.

But we will soon be together as one. 

It has been a beautiful experience being together with you.

All so sweet and bitter at times.

I will definitely miss you oh so close and sticky to me.

No matter what others may say or think about you.

You're always always gonna be so amazingly beautiful, inside and out, to me.

Buckle up!^^ We'll now start a new journey today. To walk right!

 To stay close and uptight with God ya!

I remember how passionate we once was for God.

And you kept me burning even more.

When you say you desire to see a change

It will surely happen someday!

where is the ♥?

Will you ever welcome a stranger with open hands

when you don't even know his or her name

or when they look like aliens from another planet 

giving you confirmations that "hey, they're just not my kind of people"?

Would you throw your hands around someone you know but not yet that close

just because this person wants to be cuddled somehow

and could not find ways to express their inner thoughts but seeking for comfort and care?

Would you go talk to this someone new in your group

just because you are willing to get  to know him or her so badly

and to also let them know how special his or her  presence is to you and friends?

If you ever see someone left out, 

would you pace forth to where she or he is 

to just simply accompany them 

assuring them that they are not alone in this crowd?

Of course this are the tiniest thing that should be taken notice of how you would show love 

to any single person who comes in your way...

But this is also a start to friendship...

I question myself from time to time...

Where is that innocent love, so warm and tender, that has once been shown to many?

Am I just too comfortable with my own group of friends? Couldn't care less about the newcomers?

Or do I have my oh-so-sweet-partner to spend time with? That I forgotten about others?

If I deny all this...

THEN

WHY

IS 

THIS 

GROUP

GETTING

SMALLER

OR

JUST 

STAYING THE SAME AS BEFORE???

Where has your heart gone? Is it meant  to love the ones you are close to only?

Then you and I must be wrong...

because this heart stretches far away...

this heart that beats is able to love many unconditionally..

Just like the heart that Jesus has for many people!

Like an ever flowing river,

pouring with love for the righteous and to the unrighteous...

So love people the way Jesus did and stop loving so stingily and choosy ya! haha!

secrets that I kept...

Not so much of a secret now.... secrets... covering all emotions..all the truth that lies beneath...
sometimes I do felt like I live like a someone who masked all pains perfectly.. very very well...
The fact is... I'm a loner.... haha...sounds a lil awkward... but I am one before and sometimes
it's not completely gone.. the feeling comes back and it's hard to deny that I do feel lonely...

googled loner - A loner is a person who avoids or does not actively seek human interaction or prefers to be alone. There are many reasons for solitude, intentional or otherwise, and "loner" implies no specific cause. 


haha... I google almost everything...


Well , yeah , I am one who avoids people if I can somehow... It's hard for me because I'm really bad at joking stuff
and I'm actually kinda nervous when it comes to having a proper conversation with others.. I'm a lil shy too when it comes to expressing my feelings...


Ever since I was baptize, I claim to be a new person, from the inside and out ^^!
 Slowly learning how to be myself...
and let 'me' be me to make friends. Struggling at first, but it turned out alright. You here, with me, gave me so
much encouragement saying being myself is just beautiful. 


Before having you, if you look around me... there is not many people who are close to me... to be exact..
 there is actually none... Believe me, no one greets me when I passed them by..haha..
if you'd noticed.. no one actually long to sit beside me.. truly, no one.. everyone has got at least one..
 but look here.. I really do have none.. not pitying myself.. seriously, I have none. There was once I begin to think..hey.. whats wrong with me? Am I not good enough? or pretty enough? not smart enough? Everywhere I go...I seem to have no one to be with. I look up at my contacts. Who should I call? call the closest friend I had.
 I try. I've tried... I do try my best...
Once, twice... the third and the fourth...it ends up with a 'sorry, maybe next time we hang out alone'. 
The only ones who wanna go out with me was those guys who wanted my attention and time only willingly say
'yes, I do wanna go out with ya and spend time together'. Friends... are they just some people I know?
 All I need was just one.. one friend... That's all I need... not more than that. Maybe, I suck at making friends...
or I hadn't put in much effort or making sacrifices and stuff.. I really don't know what has gone wrong in me..


Cried out to God at times. I need to know whats wrong with me. His words... over again and again I found
the similar scripture telling me that I was not alone at all... He was with me.. and He was my friend...
tears just poured out... comforted at the same time... there He is! My source of strength! 
I learn to be a good friend to someone who is need rather than searching for a good friend for myself...
I hope to bring along joy,warmth,love to the many friends that I now have. And when I realized that He was
the only best friend that I had, He gave more friends. From time to time, I will remind myself that this friend of mind
is the best of all and none can take His place. Jesus, you are my friend that knows all my secrets... and You're always trying to tell me that You are my friend - whats more to worry!
 Loyal as He is! Loving , caring and look how Gentle He is to my heart!
What a great joy to share to all of you~~~~ >o<!!!~~~~~~~ You could also have this relationship with him!
And then you'll say... Oh gosh, what a good friend He is!

ha..finally...

I felt a sense of relief when I woke up from my afternoon nap just now...
so glad that we're over... sounds so wrong...
but that is the way I feel...
I guess im really not fit for a relationship...
since im overly sensitive going insane most of the time thinking , doubting , feeling insecure and so on..ish!!!
but yet....
 I can still go on secretly seeing you...
even though I know how im breaking every rules and covering every truth just to see you...
.....haiya... been so naughty...
I can go that far... cause you're worth every moment of my life..
I remember everything... every laughter... I keep them under my bed...and now its dusty... ^^
I was lying on my bed praying to God...
Please bring us back to those days when chris and I first met...
Let us felt the same warmth, same love, same security that we once felt...
I want to walk in favor of You...
As I draw closer to you each day, reveal to me what
 must be done...so I'll live according to Your purpose, always...
AMEN! hallelujah!!!!


I gotta study now...exam coming! 

The day I forgot about your bday...

Its Sunday..Its labor day...huh... Monday's a holiday thats all I know...exxxxccitingg~~
I went to church...worship...read Bible... Holy communion... hmm...? I'm wondering... why are we having Holy communion? Oh... Its the first day of the month of May , I guess... hmm... so... its the 1st of May ya...
still, Its like somethings missing... what about 1st of May...what about it ya???
I didn't take much time thinking about it.... all I have in mind was about Ps. Sylvia msg... and kacau-ing cutie yan yan... and why today Chris is sitting so near ( I mean just one big step away from me) to me... well, he doesn't sit so near to me... or maybe I was sitting near to him cause I was sitting at the edge. Hmmm.... now service is over...gossshhh..I still have no idea...
why is CHRIS BUGGING ME A LOT MORE THAN USUAL!!!??
I'm like 'shooh shooh' stop sticking me...
Well, it's not like usual... ughh... I really don't know whats happening... then..

Chris asked me... Hey, Sabrina , are you free afterwards?
I said, ermmm... most probably joining the youth for makan then going for a movie with them...
C: Huh? what movie?
S: thor la...
C: Can ya come to my sis's party at five?
S: Huh? Who's Birthday?
C: erm... my sis celebrating my nephew's birthday...
S: Oh... I ask my mum first okay...
C: ...kay....

this is JUST great...up until now... I still have no idea... that this Sunday was your bday.. Ouh..I'm so dead..

I'm still trying to figure out whats so special about today? 1st of May?
So I tried telling you that I wasn't able to make it for the partyyh...
C: You were shocked... HUH?! seriously ah!
S: ngek ngek... no ah.. bluff you only marh.. ghaha!
C:phewh.... I really want you to come leh..

still blank... why huh? partyy>>>chris house>>>1st of MAY??!! OH MY! its your birthday...
 how could I forget about it... ^^ im super sorry!

I have the best days with you...

I love to daydream in the afternoon...thinking about you & me...
I said , 'hey, guys, duncha think my babies will be sooo~oh~ beautiful? I mean.. they're gonna be soo~ gorgeous
having their daddy's eyes or mine, just think of my baby's skin...nose...lips..and bla and blaa blaah blah!'
friend 1 : eeeeeeee! perasaan!
friend 2 : *looks down* ...ugh...not again...
friend 3 : haha! yea yeah...always ah chris this, ah chris that.. aiyuuh...pening...
wait! I say! they're gonna be chubbily fatty bom bom like their daddy or short & skinny like me when they're a kid huh? watcha guys think neh?



so...watcha think....watcha think!! papa campur mama = muka baby like how ah?

heee heee...*go all shock sendiri*....chuckle chuckle~

----- no response-----

friends 1,2,3 continued doing their h/w ignoring ME! sobs!

I start counting the days...the months..all the time we had together...
suddenly thought of me having emotional moment... and I wonder how I could go on and on..
prison by this insecure feeling that I have..so lets discuss..

friend 2 : you know, guys, it never really happened to me... all I needed , I guess..was..security...above
              everything else... I want to feel safe in any relationships... the warmth... its what I truly needed..
              Maybe that will avoid me from being worried wondering if I'm enough or not...

friend 3 : yeah...I'm afraid to get hurt too.. I rather not continue a relationship feeling so insecure...it's like    
              you've to go through this worrying things that aren't necessary and something that we could prevent..

I nod here..nod nod there.. after all the serious talking.... we laughed it off...by joking about all the handsome
guys that are awaiting for us to be admired... or to be stalked? lol..

I know in my heart, the mistakes that I've done... the path that I've chosen... call us childish or anything...
but they do have some points there... even though we know, of course, there'll be hurts in any relationships...
unless if we're not committed to one another.. but then.. it could always be prevented...if we just try let God
lead you to the right one.. so..here's me...remembering all the days being with you.. praying..hoping.. when time passes it'll prove.. giving confirmations..to us.. how feelings fades away after being blown off by the wind or how time strengthen our love..

The card project!

Cards cards cards! bear cards! hello kitty cards next? I think i'm gonna make many of them. I bought colour papers already. I think i'm quite ready to make them!!! I hope that it would be of a good memory! Hope that it could express out my love to others.  With the help of da cg girls, we created this awesome card for our dear friend!! it was huge!! it only takes 2 hrs or more...haha! great fun!

My bad...

ouhouuu... No time to regret! I must take action. I must make a change. ^.^ I gotta add oil!
I know I've wronged. But I will not let myself feel guilty anymore, instead, thinking of ways to make things
better! and better! I will declare! That God will change me from within! I am gonna be a better person, and treat friends nicer with endless love poured as generous as eva!

FIGHTING!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

My lil sweet encouraging notes!

Greatest 2010 kissmas prezzie ever!! weee!!!

 365 stars rounds up the 365 days in a year...

each one written by the sweetest honey pot with lotsa love & encouragement to share...

all originally written by YOU! proof : base on the hand writings, there's only me who reads it well XP!

wuahahahahhahakakakkakakaklalalalalalaaaa...

My hands were all sweaty. SooOooooOo nervous. They’re giving me a hard time to open the stars because I’m afraid I’ll accidently destroy it. But I manage to do only a little damage and fold it back up after reading the encouragement notes! heeh !

For this year 2011, you say it’ll be tough because I have to really focus on my studies and put our relationship to aside. This very jar of stars is given to me so that I will always know that I’m never going to go through this alone. Each of them really meant a lot to me as they represent the messages that you wanted to tell me. I am so proud to be their owner!

 HERE! here is some of the notes ya written to me...all so powerful... encompass with such encouragement..

puts a wide , wide smile on mah face... was giggling...I felt so loved by God... and His love poured onto me through your acts of gentleness felts so tangible .^^... made tears flow out from my eyes without me noticing it

 star 1#, The race is still long , but He is waiting in the end ..keep your faith …finish the race.

 star 2#, Don’t be shy or think that you would be rejected when you express yourself … someone listens.

 star 3#, The peace of God is given freely all the time, crave for His presence… Rest in Him…

       Hey, this was last year... the first time ever I receive a gift from ya! And it's stick onto my back door!

then another one... hehe... its just too pretty for me to hand it up...

so , I just left it there wrapped in the nice nice green paper... go green! go green wrapper! go green ribbon!

WHY ARE YOU SO THOUGHTFUL!

....heart melt...

as I look at these notes you've wrote on it...

It gave an extra boost to me.. see how positive words works! Very powerful in their own way...

Just like everyone needs in this world...

more love... more encouragement...

so spread it dear! theres so much people have to see in you, which is da light that shines out

the love of Christ. Cheers to ya!

  

I wanna go home...

Dear home, home sweet home... I'm living here in this small four walled room, cram - because my foot only touches the tiles that was built around my bedroom. I look up. Way up to the blue sky... I ask Father, when can I go home. I feel so alone. I feel like theres nobody I can call family. Again and again... I ask Him... take me home , Father. Would you held my hands tight? Cause its a scary place on earth. I have friends. Friends come looking for me when they're in trouble but runs away when I'm in pieces. I go to Church but I can't see you there. Bring me home will ya? When my time comes? The place I had always dreamed when I was a lil child, there , everyone was so happy. There, holds no grudges, no pain found... please take me there...

Run

If there's a plane
Or a bus leaving Dallas
I hope you're on it
If there's a train moving fast
Down the tracks
I hope you caught it

'Cause I swear out there
Ain't where you ought to be
So, catch a ride, catch a cab
Don't you know I miss you bad
But don't you walk to me

Baby run
Cut a path across the blue skies
Straight in a straight line
You can't get here fast enough

Find a truck and fire it up
Lean on the gas and off the clutch
Leave Dallas in the dust
I need you in a rush
So baby run

If you ain't got a suitcase get a box
Or an old brown paper sack
Pack it light or pack it heavy
Take a truck, take a Chevy
Baby just come back

There's a shortcut
To the highway out of town
Oh, why don't you take it?
Don't let that speed limit slow you down
Go on and break it

Baby run
Cut a path across the blue skies
Straight in a straight line
You can't get here fast enough

Find a truck and fire it up
Lean on the gas and off the clutch
Leave Dallas in the dust
I need you in a rush
So baby run

Baby run
Oh, baby run


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhUV6Ofcvr0

Surely, you and I have someone they miss a lot...
Hoping that they could run to you or they're on the way meeting you...
Well, I gotta admit that I miss someone so dearly...
and this song really express how I felt... how I would call out to that person... to run to me as quickly
as he could cause I miss him so much...

Marriage can glorify God!

I feel your love pouring generously onto me even though we're far apart... lol 10km only mar... right?
I felt your gentle caring heart for me...
I felt so happy... I must be so blessed by God to have you by my side...
I went to watch this sermon about the purpose of marriage spoken by Paul Washer..
I pulled my daddy up into my room to watch it with me as I thought it would be great if we learn something
together by watching the video... and I tell you it was AWESOME!!
A new purpose and the right one I had in mind after watching it for 36 minutes twice for the same part...
then... my daddy dose off...haha! so cute! He was really tired yesterday...plus, my comfy cold cold room
made him even more sleepy... So, here's the link!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4MVdoiw1NTk&feature=related

It's clearly stated in the scriptures in Romans 8:28-29, that God does everything for our own good...
He wants us to be conformed ( just like ) into Jesus, his son!

That particular scripture has everything to do with marriage...
For a man/woman whom has heard the calling of God to love someone, in obedience we will follow
His command. How does marriage works that way? Well, it's God ways of shaping us to be like Him.
Through this covenant that you have made , that is your vows to God which you must keep for as long
as you live will you are able to learn how to love your wife/husband unconditionally.
Sounds like you've done it before, easy huh? It will all be revealed to you when your partner
unfolds its true nature to you - nasty! heh heh heh... Maybe this is how it works, we can't fully understand how God works sometimes or maybe all the time. Jesus, full of mercy,grace and loves unconditionally..
This how God , our Father, wants us to be. We are brought to marriage to whom sometimes doesn't meet your needs , that sometimes doesn't approve of you nor fulfill your conditions of how a wife/
husband should be. This is how we learn. Through the ups & downs, you are bound to stick with your
partner no matter how worst is the situation is. Its how we truly learn to love someone even though sometimes
he/she might be so so unlovable... This is your purpose in life... that is doing the will of God, being more and
more like Jesus! What a great journey we are heading to - marriage!